06/25/2014
God did it, Bella. He came through yet again! We sold the
condo. It all went perfectly. We got the price we needed by the time we needed
it. We have all the money for your adoption tucked away safely in an account,
waiting for you. Waiting to start the process to bring you home!!!!
It’s crazy how often I think about you, Bella. Every single
day. When I hug Eli and Max, when I see pics of my friend’s beautiful little
girl whom she recently adopted, and every time I pray, my heart goes to you
first. All the way on the other side of the World. I can’t wait to see your
face. Can’t wait to hold you close. I know in time we will be so close. I pray
for our journey to each other. It will be so hard for you, and my heart aches
for that. I don’t want you to have to suffer. I know that in the first few
years, you will have to go through so much. I am so sorry.
But just like when we brought Max into the world through
C-section, it left a scar on me. That scar will never leave me, but scars get
better with time. They fade, they don’t hurt as much, you stop thinking about them
all the time. Max joining our family scarred me. Just like you joining our
family will leave a scar in your heart. It will be painful. But the pain will
fade with time.
And I am proud of my scars. One for surviving heart surgery
20+ years ago and another for bringing my precious Max into the World. Scars
show us where we’ve been. Life leaves marks. And before you even draw a breath,
you are leaving marks on my heart. I love you, Bella. Already. Please come home
soon….
